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2015 First post.

Hello haha after half year of my last post, I'm finally here again to update my blog. So, this is my first post of 2015. I have always remind myself in year 2014 that I should at least post one blog like update my current mood or life to keep it as a record. But, I failed! haha so, first post in year 2015 and I hope more to come. My life till now, I live about 18 years. I will always say that it was a biggest changes in the year when I was 17 years old to 18 years old. And I know that from this biggest change, there will be more changes in my life every year because I am not a kid anymore. Getting bigger, getting more problem to solve isn't it. I hope I had learned through the problem and the thing that hurt will makes me stronger. I love my family. I scare they will leave me. I want them be with me forever. Health, Wealth, Safe are always one of my wishes of the year for them. Actually when I was high school, I always told my parents that I hope faster grow up ,faster leave ho
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The beginning of May

Hello,readers,now it's May!That's mean my April whole month I din't update my blog.Okay, so here is my update. I don't know if anyone is reading or not, because I just give my blog link for few quite close friends and I just put it hide in Twitter.If you are reading this,that's mean u saw my twitter profile?haha..Anyway,thanks for reading my blog or i called it as my diary. Everything went so fast...maybe is too fast..Everything changed...I don't know if i got change or not..Sometimes I will feel sad without reason and I don't know why..If my parents bought me something or  everything happens around me is nice,I will feel happy but just for a meanwhile...Just feel that I getting bigger, getting more secret that people couldn't understand.I wanted to try telling someone, but I failed.Everything is not under my estimation.I just feel like everyday I did nothing..I don't know why..I want to find back myself...I currently loosing myself...I scroll my pho
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Disappointed

After a few days,my heart,my mind finally get to calm down. So, my SPM result I am not really satisfied at all, but what can i do? It already be a history of Jia Yi's Life! So just move on! One thing that always well cheer me up is my parents. The day of the results released, they scared me too afraid if  take results with all my friends,so they decided to fetch me to Taiping for awhile and bring me back before one. When the way I back from Taiping,I know SPM results came out and everyone except me knew about their results.They started to message me. This is what make me feel more even moody.I'm kinda afraid till I really cried at car after receiving stef and caro's phone call. I cried. Caro get really good results. It let me more afraid and I don't even want to message to get my results.My parents want me to message and let them see thn call me don't see.Actually everyone beside me get excellent results except me,this is what i thought after get to know everyone
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Nervous

My feeling right now? Nervous  Nervous Nervous I really feel nervous now. Last few days ,I admit ,I really don't have so much feeling about it. But now?The day before tomorrow....I started to worry. Tomorrow is the day releasing of SPM results. Big day ya! I really very scare, I know it's useless to think so much as the result already fix. Okay, fine. Just relax and face it tomorrow. I just don't feel like wanna see anyone tomorrow as I scare. TT  I have nothing to say le...... God bless me tomorrow get a good result in my SPM!!  Bless me pleaseeeeeeeee...
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Why reluctant smile,chat,talk?

Hey,guys, so, today is friday!Happy Friday!Finally ended a week five days with class.I feel so relief every friday, because....you know?I love no class so much,I don't like the place like I not belong to.What should I do?seems I was not belong to anyone or the place. I really feel sad  :(  Is okay to be alone..Is okay...Really.. I really freaking not reconciled to  every things that happen to me! What's wrong?! I can't even really told someone that my unfavourable situation, even my parents, I scare they worried of their daughter can't really socialize in the college...I am 18 years old this year,I don't want they thought me still need they worried or I still dont have my own ability to solve my things!when they ask me,I don't know how to say....Can I say "I know them but not very close with them,like I am left out when I'm with them"?   NO  !I can't said that! "everything was just fined,and our friendship normal normal" this is what
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Torturing days

I am not supposed to post something here since I lack of time, but I feel like want to split out all my feeling! Argh! It's tortured me! Feels like run away from all the assessment, assignment, journal, presentation and all those irritating things! Two days later is my first assessment of Biology and Math. But what had I done? I did nothing! really nothing! I feel useless , because I wasted my weekend like this, just like rotting at house. I just really lazy and sleepy. Just can't really pay attention, can't focused! I don't know why....really don't know why...I am scared! Can I just run away? I feel that I really sick of college life..TT how? So worried but just did nothing. Why am I changed? I thought college life is relax and flexible. Okay,  That's all false! I feel that I have much things to do, but I just don't feel like doing anything. What's wrong with me?! Seriously, I keep asking myself! ps. Will be back after tortured assessment, that'
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You Who Came from star*

嗨，我又来这里写了。最近的我在这里还满 active 的嘛，纯粹只想要找个地方释放一下情绪，感受。忽然间觉得twitter有很多奇怪的人总喜欢问人到底发生什么事。Harlloooo，我想告诉你，我们并不是熟到能讲心事的那种人吧？今天的我只想用华文type 出，写这些东西都是得看心情的对吧？以前的我，以为说不出，就用写来表达。不想对别人说，自己的秘密，就把它用日记记录下来。怎知现在的我，连写都写不出，呵，是不是很奇怪啊？今天我命名的题目是不是觉得我这个花痴，又看韩剧了，没错，这次真想好好地看完整个剧情。虽然很不真实，但是我喜欢他的故事，喜欢那男主角。有人总会告诉我，这些不真实的事情是不可能会发生在生活上的，为什么还要看？我知道啊，你不觉得平时的生活实在没什么新鲜感吗？每天过着一样的生活，我好厌倦。看戏是唯一一种让我逃离现实的方法。我在看戏时，会很轻松地跟着剧情走，我就是喜欢这种感觉，所以我的人生中，一定不能少了看戏这部分！现在越来越多assignment and homework 要做，而且下个星期就考 Math and Biology Assessment 1，唉，真烦啊！这戏只能停在这儿一下子等我考完再继续看了。时间似乎都好像不够用，一下子一天就过了，却好像什么事也没做到。 来自星星的你，我好爱你！ 好看的戏不可以一次过看到完，虽然我也很想，唉，下个星期再继续看你了！这部戏的歌好好听哦！有时晚上，就是特别喜欢听没歌声的旋律。：）我是因为刚做完Bio lab report,来这里讲话，好迟了哦，再见！ Just listened my car theory yesterday, I think i am the slowest among my friends! omg haihz Nevermind then . Tomorrow is my first car practical,omg,hope everything go smoothly o! God bless me get a good uncle to teach me o!:)  I just want faster get license P and drive car LOL..bye and Good Night everyone!
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